AFTER A LOOOONNNGG OVER DUE HIATUS!!!!! VRRROOMM!!!VROOM!! VRROOOM!!!
So dam bored today... No girls or even anybody else for that matter to hang out with. Fucking lonely I need to go outside and restock on chicks. I'm way too scared of approaching right now. I have a huge fucking ego right now. I have been telling myself to get my balls together and go solo. But how can I go solo when I'm too lazy and scared to meet up with my wingman on this beautiful Saturday (when hot chicks are most likely out) because of the idea of approaching, the idea of meeting beautiful women. There are many times when I think that I am not even worth their time... So yesterday night some chick slept over at my place. I think I could have made a move but she is a late bloomer and she told me about the many qualms of moving the interaction to fast towards a physical level. Plus she only thinks of me as a friend but I have this biting feeling that she is slowly getting attracted to me. This could be interesting but at the same time I don't want to get stuck under a one-itis role...
In other news my body is still feeling like shit. I found out recently that my body is asymmetrical and I tilt to the left because of scoliosis. My entire head or neck is shifted to the left while bending towards the right and down. I'm still really self conscious about this problem and the way I look because of this problem. I think this self conscious issue has prevented me from doing other things in my life such as approaching women, attending social functions, holding a room at a public gathering, and pursuing physical hobbies such as yoga... I shouldn't be taking this to seriously though. The only thing I can do right now is just work on the stretches. It literally feels tense, stiff and tight. I'm still waiting for my appointment with neurology that way my physical therapists could tell them about my condition and that may result into a Botox shot or even surgery.
Basically all I really did today was walk that chick back to the subway station so that she can go back home and I came extremely late to my driving class. (I need to stop being late for appointments) but hey I think that I am getting way better at driving. I'm still hoping to get that license so that I can apply to be an EMS and then a fireman. Now I'm just sitting on my ass typing this whole entry on the notes section of my phone.
I need to stop typing right now and get off my ass and do something productive on this lovely day. It’s not like I have a pretty girl sitting on my lap right now. I have to do something about that, or at least fix and clean up my home.
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