updateeeee

Man... Had a rough day today. Today was another day of daytime or non venue type sarging. Went at it for 4 hour but only came out with two approaches which were less than spectacular. I didn't get any numbers or instant dates this time around. I guess I'm still in the process of riding through approach anxiety and beginners hell.

And as always as soon as I got home I watched a movie and then straight to masturbation. Hopefully tomorrow I can cut down on that because my dentist says I should be able to exercise again after a week. So tomorrow will be a week since my wisdom tooth got extracted. Tomorrow I can officially get back out there and do some Muay Thai but that's if my Beth Israel cervical Dystonia appointment doesn't fill up my whole day.
It’s weird because during my sarge many negative thoughts started to flood my mind.
- I will never get good at this because physically I'm unattractive
- Or I am just too weird, to creepy, socially awkward,
- Women are not supposed to be in my life. I do not deserve them especially high quality women.
- I am unfit, not responsible, and not manly/alpha enough
- I do not have much experience
- I do not have a fun lifestyle that the ladies would enjoy
- I am a boring guy
- I am just not born to be cool and have the ladies
- I am born to be a loser my entire life
- I do not know when to shut up and when to talk
- I bring up random uncomfortable topics or conversation threads at the wrong time
- I am atrocious at putting phrases together into a complete sentence
- I have a high squeaky nasal voice
- I am just not made out for this
- The only thing I can do is get numbers, occasional instant dates and sometimes not even both
- There is no way they will meet up with me, they will always flake
- I still live with my parents in a dirty roach, insect spider infested home. There is no way a chick would come to my home and still dig me. I might as not try and should start pick up when I get my own place.
- Just quit dude there is no point, just stay home play video games and masturbate all day.
- You would be lucky or should be lucky to land or get a date, female companionship or a long term girlfriend for that matter.
- I am not going to get laid for a long time no matter how hard I try.
- I masturbate a lot therefore I can't get girls or I am really creepy / socially awkward or socially unacceptable.

Because of the unusually high level of useless negative talk circulating in my head it took me almost the first four hours before I could do my first approach and mentally reframe to fit my composure. Even after I did my sets I still didn't feel like I was king of the world and that I could approach any girl or set. I guess it just takes time and persistence before my mindset can naturalize the fact that I am an attractive person. It’s going to take a while before my mind realizes that I shouldn't take an rejection to personally because in the end its not exactly me who they hate but my approach. Got to stick my approach!


Things I could do to better my game;
- My comfort game is weak and so is my banter
- I need to stick my approach and kino touch them with confidence whenever I open
- pause and say it loud
- stay grounded
- using gestures is optional
- try to mirror her
- still have tons of limiting barriers, beliefs and qualms about getting rejected even though I know nothing really happens after a rejection.
- I don't feel congruent, I feel like I am dishonest with myself and I feel like I am not completely honest to other people.
- I am not in the moment.
- I need to learn to control my mental state and be nonreactive to certain social situations.

LADIES IF YOUR OUT THERE AND GENTLEMAN UPDATE!!!! 2/8/09 SUNDAY

Just woke up bros. Ugh I feel so stiff. It must be from the lack of exercise and waking up at 1 in the freaking afternoon. I haven't been able to move around too much since the extraction, so I have just been taking it easy and not doing anything to physical. My dentist says I should be able to get back to normal activities on Thursday. Well I really hope so; I can't wait to do some Muay Thai and other activities.

So today I don't really have much planned except for maybe clean up my home. My home is really dirty and filled with roaches. I bought a roach spray a few days ago. I hope that does the job. It’s already bad enough that I live with my parents, now that my home is messy and has roaches makes it even worse. I don't want to be a dam chick repellent!

I doubt it but if I have the time I need to go to David Z and get my W2 form before the government starts thinking I'm trying to scam them. I also need to get my lazy ass to start studying and taking that HIPPA course test so that I can get my part time paid internship underway. Plus hopefully I can catch up on my reading this week. Been alittle to lazy to pick up a book and actually enamor myself in it. These days when I pick up a book I get distracted easily and don’t concentrate too much on what I am reading.

Oh I almost forgot dudes; I’ll be doing the Better Asian Man Podcast today. Check me out homies. The podcast should be out Monday night. If not Monday night should be Tuesday morning. If you dudes have any questions or just want to say what up, call in and ask for "Baby Will" ugghh I'm starting to hate that name. I just want it to be WILL. You can call in every Sunday from 4:00-4:30pm EST (1:00-1:30pm PST) the number is 978-964-0049. Remember to type in the pass code which is 525-484#. Or you can drop an email and I’ll gladly answer your questions during the Q&A segment. Better Asian Man email is editor@betterasianman.com. Or you can hit me up whuang712@vzw.blackberry.net and I’ll be sure to bring it up during the Podcast or answer it during my own time. Ahh.. Bros it looks like it’s going to be a wonderful day today. Go out there and enjoy the weather!!!!!

Until next time homies!!!!

Today’s Word of the DAY; JUGATE – adj. Joined in or forming pairs or a pair.

Song of the DAY; Olivia Ong – Fly me to the Moon (Holy shit I’m obsessed with this chick)

CIRCUMCISE THAT SMALL ASIAN PEPE!!!!

Just woke up like 10 minutes ago. My mouth is still in pain from the extraction especially since I haven't taken any pain killers or medication since 9 yesterday night. Ucck I can still taste the blood.

Anyways I just got done reading this interesting article about circumcision and it made me really think hard about my own commando. The article basically talked about the benefits of circumcision and how it can help prevent sexually transmitted diseases. Now I've already known about this from the various people I talk to and various sources that I found in the past but this article from Men’s Health is still very insightful.

I remember feeling this sticky sore pain on my penis as I went through puberty. Most of the sensation was on the foreskin. I don't think anybody else was exposed to that kind of pain because almost 90% of my classmates or friends were circumcised.

“But it’s not without its rewards. The Africa trials add substantial weight to a mounting pile of evidence that circumcision also reduces the spread of other sexually transmitted illnesses, including several types of cancer and venereal disease. The journal BMC Infectious Diseases published a study (coauthored by Halperin and four others) that compared rates of cervical cancer-caused by Halperin and four others) that compared rates of cervical cancer-caused by the sexually transmitted human papillomavirus, or HPV-in more than 100 countries in Asia, Africa, and Latin America. In countries where fewer than 20 percent of men were circumcised, cervical-cancer rates were about 70 percent higher than in countries where more than 80 percent were circumcised.” From Men’s Health March 2009 Page 95

Besides the unhygienic and uneasy feeling that subsides daily in an uncircumcised penis there is also a risk of catching a STD is higher than a circumcised penis. This can be shown through studies done in Africa in conjunction with the AIDS epidemic and The Human Papillomavirus or the HPV. There is no need for the extra foreskin anymore after birth.

“CIRCUMCISED OR NOT, EVERY MAN OWES HIS foreskin a great debt of gratitude for its service in the womb. In the third month of gestation, when the nascent penis begins to bloom, the foreskin forms a little protective blanket under which the rest of the pens can safely grow. But once you and your penis are fully baked, the advantage of a foreskin is not clear. Some scientists speculate that it protected the prehistoric penis as it swung, naked, through thick forests and over tall grasses; and unless you take your penis on that sort of excursion, they argue, you don’t need a foreskin.” From Men’s Health March 2009 page 94

Well for one thing I am definitely not swinging my jingaling around in the urban jungles of New York City. Best of all the circumcision does not hurt at all these days since in this day and age the operation is very procedure. They are mandated to put the patient under Anesthesia. Well I’m not trying to sell circumcision to every guy that is uncircumcised but it does sound like a good plan with so many benefits. I’m definitely getting my little yellow Asian penis circumcised when I get the money!!!

Get your commando circumcised today homies!!!!