At random times through my day I know I lose sight of my thoughts. I start over analyzing every situation in life. Even the simplest thing like walking in the street will get my thoughts in a stir. “Oh this is a bad situation William, you have to walk like you’re the shit and not bump into the people that are in front of you.” All of a sudden a mini panic attack occurs. I need to start teaching myself how to accept the situation at hand and just surrender while at the same time take right action.
I have been reading “the power of now” by Eckhart Tolle and it has expanded my horizons. The first thing I believe I should do is to be aware of my tendency to think or live in the past. I have to be aware of my habitual tendencies of dwelling of negative limiting beliefs, coming to grips with those limiting beliefs in my head, accept them and surrender to them. At the same time I have to realize that all of this is in my head and my own being is not my head or mind. Once I realize this I will take right action.
Most of the time I believe this is hard. It’s just hard to accept feelings of fear, anxiety and negative thoughts and then carry out a direct right action. The whole process is illogical. Taking right action is like doing the confliction opposite of the mass negative thoughts harboring in my egocentric mind. But I have to realize most of the time the world is irrational and not logical. This is my best source of action and I have to practice this as much as possible so that I can turn it into a habit, the habit of being aware of my ego driven mind and being in the now. I need to harness every experience and moment in life.
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